I just really need to get some things out of my head... I have had some things happen over the holiday season that have just made me sick. I feel like I was a completely different person- a person I really don't want to be again. I got through the crap with a big thanks to my family and friends. I really want to thank LeAnne- You have been an amazing strength for me! You haven't ever forgot about me or left me when things sucked. You have been teaching me how to be strong and I really want to thank you for that. I look up to you in more ways than I can count and think very highly of you. You have been there in so many ways- You are truly amazing and a great blessing in my life. Thank you so much for making me see more things about me that I can't see all the time. Thank you for the late night cries and talks :) Thank you to you and Boyce for opening up your home to me when things have been rough and when things are good as well. Your family has always been there and I am so thankful for that. LeAnne- I love you so much! Thank you Cordell for being such a sweet little brother and Julian- Thank you for all your hugs always showing me your amazing smile! I love you both kido's! and Thank you Boyce for being supportive through this. :) I love you all!
Thank you Donna and Dave for allowing me to stay at your house every weekend and most nights for the last month. Last month wasn't what I would have planned but it happened and I just want to say thank you for letting me stay even though things were really tense. I appreciate you very much. I love you both very much!
Thank you Kayli and Cindy for a home... a very caring and welcoming home. You both are amazing women and I look up to you both in many ways. I appreciate all your support through it all.... Thank you for never judging and for always being understanding. Kayli- You have always been an amazing friend and I have no idea what my life would be like without you in it. Thank you so much for all the laughs, love and great times! Your the best hun! Love ya both!
Thank you Christy for being an amazing friend and always watching out for me. You are a very incredible person and I love you dearly. You are a great mom and a hard worker. I also look up to you in many ways. You have never judged me and i appreciate that. You have taught me a lot and I am really thankful to have you as a friend. Thank you for always being up when I am down and for always listening...even late at night.
Well.... as for me- My goal is to have a much higher self esteem and to love myself so i can love someone else. I want to be secure and strong in my self and my decisions. I only want the best for me- I want to live, laugh and have so much fun in my life. I want to be active and really enjoy my life. I want to show love and respect to myself, my family & friends. I am ready to start working on myself and start feeling better! I don't ever want to feel the way I felt the last two months. I plan on being strong and know that this isn't the end- :) So I'm ready for 2010!!